You’re talking. I can see your lips move, your hands making arcs in the air your eyebrows scrunched up in worry. But I don’t hear you. All I hear is the repeated words, as if on an infinite loop, you failed you failed you failed. Parvathi and I are attempting Rebirth in April in July. […]
“Twenty Questions.” That’s the first thing you say when we met after 6 years. We were best friends then. In my mind, we always were. When you asked the first question, I knew, that we will always be best friends, but new people to each other. This is how I feel when I meet my […]
It is 4:32 AM. I am not asleep. I don’t know if I’ll ever be. All the events since the last month have eaten bits and pieces of me, slowly. I get up to make myself some tea. I pad around my apartment, seeing but not noticing. Hearing all the early morning noises but not […]
Deep breaths. Inhale. Mouth closed. Exhale. Mouth open. I count the number of random strangers around me who were having a peaceful time without knowing me or my anger management issues. A hand, firm and strong, comes up on my shoulder. I try smiling at him, my father, supporter of everything I do, there’s no […]
What if you’d replied to that last email? What if you’d texted me, “I don’t understand what you’re saying…” What if you’d told me, “Sorry, no,” Or, “Let’s talk soon.” What if you’d not made me feel like a total idiot? Would I still be pining that you didn’t even think we had a chance? […]
